I dont feel like posting much
BUT im getting boobs. YAY

Soooo tired after a day at the beach. South Padre is definitely better than corpus christi. The water is clear and it doesn't take long to get everywhere. We went ahead and got an extra night. I'm sad because tomorrow is our last day of vacation. So I want to make the most of it. We're going to get up early and spend the whole day at the beach. I want to do this sunset horseback ride thing but it's 45 dollars which I think is pretty high but it's still tempting because A) I've never been horseback riding. and B) horseback riding on the beach sounds amazzzzzzzing


MMK well I'm done for the day. Just wanted some kind of update.
Toodles.

So right now I'm in Corpus Christie. I've been here since Sunday and I've been having a blast. Me and Alex drove up Safara to meet his dad and dad's girlfriend Pam. Sunday afternoon we stopped by the beach then went out to dinner at this fun little eclectic spot in town. That night we went to bed early because we had to wake up at 7:30 monday morning. (Ew.) lol, we took out Alex's dad's boat and it was surprisingly fun. He showed us around Port aranzas then we fished for a few hours in several different spots. We didn't catch much but we did find a cute crab that I named Henry. He was adorable but a little on the crabby side. Go figure. We also saw a total of 6 dolphins while out fishing. They are such majestic and beautiful creatures - definitely one of my favorite animals. After we left the boat we went to mustang beach and spend the afternoon there. From 3 - 8:30! Yeah, we were there a while. It was fun we barbecued out on the beach and just hung out and relaxed. Definitely what I needed after a full summer of 40 hours a week indoors.

After the beach we went back to the hotel and went to sleep. This morning we woke up at around 11 and Alex and I went to the Texas State Aquarium. It was a fun little experience. There was one really bitchy lady who tried to convince us the aquarium was moving in a line, which is ridiculous. There is no "line" at the aquarium. You go from exibit to exibit as you please. The animals were awesome. There were some otters that were using there little slide. Funny enough Peta was outside protesting because the otters "have horrible lives" but they looked like fucking kings to me. Oh well. There was a bird show but obviously I opted to skip that one . Lol. We went and saw the dolphins underground and they were amazing to watch. Seeing from below the water was even more amazing. They did their tricks and it looks painful almost when they land. They had a baskteball and when they would bring it underwater they would dribble it. The only un-cute part was when one dolphin took a massive shit. It was disgusting but kind of funny. lol.

After that we went to find buffalo wild wings because it's Tuesday so we can get some ballin 45 cent wings! duh! lol We bought Bdubs to go and smuggled it into The proposal which turned out to be a cute movie. From there we went back to mustang beach and caught the last few hours of sunlight.

That leaves us where we are now. In the hotel on our computers, exhausted lol.

Tomorrow Alex and I are heading down to South Padre to stay there. We don't know if we're going to stay one night or two. We might stay through thursday so we can check out schlitterbahhnnn



mmk
wellllll gtg
toodles

I finally requested Tuesdays and Thursdays off so I was off all day today :) Yesterday I made a spur the moment decision to get another tattoo. lol. IDK if I mentioned it but on my birthday I got love on my left wrist in a cursive font. Well yesterday I got hope in the same font on my right wrist. I love it. I think my tattoo days are done now though.

Just those two tiny ones. But the guy who did my tattoos was really creepy. Here is a few excerpts from the momentous experience:

"I accept payments besides money"
"You're going to have to get wayy closer to me."
"It's always better when it's bigger. It's just painful. HA HA"

All of those"about the tattoos"
Yeah right.
Creepy old dude.

Okay well I don't feel like typing but I wanted to update.
Toodles.

So as I may have mentioned prior, I tend to work my life away. I have today off and even though I always talk about how much I'd loooove a day off, I find myself halfway through my day with absolutely nothing to do. Having nothing to do is something I'm not familier with anymore. It's always work, then friend time / Alex time / cleaning / blahblahblah. So I have spent the majority of the day cleaning and facebooking.

I woke up at 12 today though and I have to admit, that was pretty nice. I usually have to wake up at 9:20 and the first thing that comes to mind is "fuck my life."

But yeah, no work today. Apparently I'm going to start getting Tuesday and Thursdays off unless they REALLY need me. Which they will probably take advantage of but if you think about it having Tuesdays and Thursdays off is that it makes the week go by quicker. I won't have to work but two consecutive days. Which will be good. I hate working consecutive days. It suckkkkks.

I need my credit card to come in the mail before Padre. We leave a week from today. I'm sooo ready for a week off. I can't wait! I'm pretty screwed if I don't get my card though. Funny story what happeneed to my card. Alex and I went to old town spring to buy me a Louis Vuitton satchell for classes this fall. We were checking out and I discover my credit card is missing. Sooo we drove to compass bank to report it lost. When we were there they informed me that the ATM had captured it because I was a dumbass and left it in there. EMBARRASSING. Oh well, there was a long list of people who had done it too. (You had to initial to receive your card again.)

You think that's the worst of it? Oh no.

So I leave the bank then go to McDonalds to get some food. I'm resting my elbow on the open windosill waiting to hand my debit card to the person in the window when I drop it. And it could not land in my car, or right outside of the door. OH NO. It has to go right down the window slot. I took my car to Gullo Ford and they took the door panel off to try and retreive it for me - but they told me they would have to remove the window motor and the glass panel - which would cost money. Needless to say - I ordered a new card.

Oh the life of Kendall.

Well, I'm going to go watch desperate housewives in bed and continue my lazy Sunday. Toodles.

Boys are so gross. I would like to throw that out there. Today I spent all day at work then had a date with my BFF Franchesca. What does that mean exactly? Well you will never know. BUT I will. and I wanted to throw something about that in while I blogged so that one day when I re-read this I will smirk. :)


Moving on, I'm really getting annoyed at this Cole situation. She never actually apologized though she did make a small attempt to talk to me on my birthday. I know that she realizes she was wrong because she told Alex that she knows she was way out of line - but she actually hasn't apologized. Not only is it out of character for her to say those things in the first place, it's completely out of the norm for her to not apologize 2 seconds after let alone a few weeks. Oh well, I really shouldn't be surprised. I've known for a long time that she is different now I guess I just refused to accept it.

Anyway moving on.

I bought my halloween costume today. I know, I know - it's wayyy early. It's not like I went looking for it though. I work at a place with the biggest leg avenue selection in the surrounding areas. It's like a halloween madhouse. We got 40 boxes of merch in and I found the perfect costume so I had to buy it. Not to mention I have excess money at the moment because USUALLY I am stingy. It's really cute. It's a corseted and gartered maid costume. It's really short so I think I'm going to have to buy some of the scrunchie panties to go underneath it. I also bought cute striped thigh highs. It's amazing and I really want to wear it to the club on halloween. I just hope some of my friends are in town and can go. I know a lot of them will be out of town for college.

I got invited to a party by a girl I work with today. It sounded like a sausage fest so I opted against it. I don't know how Alex would feel about that one. Okay well I'm blogging about absolutely nothing now so I guess I'm going to go.

Byee

I just got home from a very good dinner with my family. Earlier today at work my mom came in and she bought me a very nice pair of shoes. When she did I just started crying. I don't know why but it hit me how grateful I am for her and I just cried. I think it's because they've done so much for me lately. They paid for my classes and bought me a laptop for school. It was embarrassing but not the last time today that I cried. Her and my dad invited me out for dinner at Red Lobster. They bought me the "ultimate feast" with lobster and crab and just basically spoiled me. When we left they called and offered to pay for Dish TV for my apartment. I just burst into tears. I don't deserve such thoughtful parents. I am so grateful for them and everything that they do for me. It takes growing up and becoming independant and responsible for you to really see how great your parents are.

Mine mean the world to me.

I always end up abandoning my journals. I really should be better about updating. I haven't been consistent about posting in almost a year. A lot has changed in my life and i don't feel like updating all of it. so I'll keep it short and sweet. Well, as short as I can I guess. I graduated high school. That was okay. People always say, "Oh it will hit you when you're walking out there and you hear the graduation music." Nope. Never hit me. I am the exception to the rule. It still hasn't hit me to be honest. Getting out of highschool has caused me to do some soul searching and really grow up fast. I live with Alex now. We have a nice little apartment and I couldn't be happier. I feel so free. I work a lot. My job is at a little costume/dance shop and it pays more than enough to pay for my bills and then some. Not to mention that I am stingy. I just finalized my classes for my first semester of college. I'll be taking Humanities, Comp & Rhetoric 1, Government1, and finally geology and a geology lab.

Between work, school, and my love life I should be a pretty busy girl. right before school starts Alex and I are going to go to Padre with his dad and sister. I'm really looking forward to that. I haven't had much of a summer because I've pretty much been working every day. I don't regret that though. Work makes me feel like I'm doing something with myself .I always feel so lazy and guilty when I'm home for a day. I guess my friendships have sort of changed. I still have one best friend closer than ever but Cole and me are not friends anymore. Strangely enough I don't think that we're going to be. It's very strange to say that she won't be my friend again since we were best friends for eleven years. But I have my reasons and it all equates to being out of highschool and done with highschool things. One of those things being Nicole. We had a good run, but at the end of the day we have grown to become different people. Our paths aren't even going to lead us to the same state at any point in time - so fighting for something that will drift further from grasp is pointless.

Besides, I have love.

Moving on, my sister got married this summer. She married a guy named Shawn. He's okay, I'm fine with him as long as he treats her right. It was really fun when we visited her. It was one day after me and Alex moved in together so we really got the feel of living with each other while in Ruidoso with her. Alex and I stayed with Shelley and Shawn, then the last night in Ruidoso my mom got us a cabin. It was really fun and definitely a great memory. Especially getting wasted with my entire family. Though I don't remember to much of that night it's still technically a "good memory" lol.

Okay well I'm going to stop blogging now because this is turning into a novel pretty quick. I'm going to try to keep updating this though. Not even really because anyone reads it because - well - let's be honest. I highly doubt many people if anyone does. But it's always fun to read back on past memories and reminesce. Okay, well I'm off.

Toodles.

I just realized I haven't posted here in over a month so I figure I'll update the blog on my life. (Like anyone actually reads this..) Oh well, it will be interesting to read over this stuff later. It will keep me from forgetting certain things that happen.

Umm. Well at the moment I'm texting Chris Graff. This is kind of sentimental to me. (Not just because I'm PMSing) but because he is my best guy friend. It is a really long story so I'll try to summarize it. When I was a freshman I moved 1000 miles away from my life. I was in a really bad place and I had very bad depression. I've never really talked about this with anyone.. but I was suffering from insomnia, I hated waking up I hated living. It sounds so emo but it really was my lowest point. Chris noticed this and he stepped up to the plate. He came over every morning and pulled me out of bed and made me face the day. He took me to do fun things every day. He introduced me to new people and always kept me busy. During the school year he would come over every afternoon and take me out to do things. You want to know the best part about this? His friendship was completely platonic. Not once did he make a move on me; nor I him. He is the one guy that I can think back on my time spent with him and think that it was literally just a brotherly / sisterly love. Anyway so today I was filling out a lame myspace survey and it asked who my best guy friend was. Even though I have a good guy friend right now - and I hadn't talked to Chris in a month or so I still put him. He'll probably always be my best guy friend. So I got all emotional and sentimental and texted him.

Moving on, me and Alex are good right now. He's going to come over after work and bring me chocolate ice cream. It's really the only cure to these monster cramps that I get. It's bad. Never grow ovaries. They suck. Bad.

So I'm working at an italian resturant as a hostess. It's an okay job. THe people are really nice and they make it interesting. One of the girls is a little off but at the end of the day she is nice so I'm not complaining. Hostessing is an okay job but it sucks because people get angry with you very easily. I never thought choosing a seat for someone would be this difficult. I figured it was easy enough, you just rotate which section to seat. But NO. God forbid you take a couple to a table and they treat it like a pariah. I swear; some people have serious grudges against these tables. It's strange to me. It's like they are afraid of it. They back up and their eyes get wide and they say, "No. No we can't sit here. No." It's so annoying. So I'll try to seat them at an alternate seat in the section but with my luck they ALWAYS choose to sit in the same section that I just sat. This pisses the waitor off because they are double sat. But not at the picky bitches who requested it. Oh no. They get mad at me.


Okay, i'm done ranting.

The dog groomer came today. I think she's obsessed with my boyfriend. She randomely knows him and knows everything about him. She groomed Charlie, Bitsi, and Studley. So Bitsi is in heat and Charlie and Studley keep double teaming her. It's disturbing because Studley and Charlie are related. Studley being Charlie's father. God forbid she gets pregnant. I honestly won't know who the father of her puppies are.

I won't be surprised if they come out skinny with long legs and suspicious chihuahua ears.

Pooh bear is a horny freak too.

Okay, I'm tired of blogging for now.
Peace.

I have re-joined the working class! && I get apartment keys on Thursday! Could my life be much better?

Nope. Not so much!


The only negative - I have to wear pantyhose for my job. :-S

Lol oh well
Roll in the dough!

Toodles.

It's so weird to me how you can completely overlook a time period in your life that holds with it so much emotion. When good memories are mixed with sadness it's often easier to leave them buried in your sub-consciousness then dig them up to remember. However, sometimes you need to remember those times. My life in Ruidoso seems like a whole life other than mine. It's like a movie played out in my mind. Nothing of my life is the same here. Everything is different and when I remember making a life there it basically overwhelms me with emotion. It's so different from Willis memories. Willis memories are closer, in my opinion. Even though some of them were even before my time in Ruidoso, I'm still here - with the same people. Looking at the same reminders of those memories everyday.

I think that's why it's easy to forget about Ruidoso as a life. Sometimes it feels like it was just an extended vacation that flew by so quickly. When in all reality it was over a year, and literally up until the last day before I moved; I had no idea I would ever be coming back.

It also makes me feel strange to imagine my life if we had never moved back. In a way it makes my stomach tighten and almost makes my eyes water. Life would be different still, with great friends - but no Alex. What would I do without Alex? Would I have found a new Alex? Would I be alone? I know it's pointless to think of the what-ifs but I can't help myself. If you don't think about the alternate endings you are basically leaving your memories buried. Because when you think of memories, you always think "What if this had changed."

I know I do.

Okay, I know my weird emotional blog is different from my other more light-hearted blogs but I needed to get this out somehow. It worked.


Toodles.

So today I had an enormous amount of stress due to my boyfriend's mother lecturing him and I about how we basically have to expensive taste when it comes to apartments. This isn't even true. Yes, we are moving into a nice apartment, but it's the cheapest one we could find that wasn't tax credit. All of the super cheap apartments are "tax credit" and if you are a student you don't qualify to live in the complex's. Yeah. It's pretty gay.

So me and Alex will have a total bill of around 800 dollars a month. (including everything.) His dad is helping out with 340 a month, so we will each have to pay 230 a month, which is really not bad at all.

So I put all of her negative thoughts aside and went shopping with my grandma for apartment-type things. It was a successful venture :)

I spent 128 dollars and bought:

A dining room table
4 red bowls
4 red plates
25 silverware set
2 zebra towels
2 black towels
black and silver toothbrush holder
zebra & black hand towels / rags
zebra shower curtain
black bath mat

That's a lot of stuff for a little bit of money. My maw maw cheered me up and now I'm optimistic again. Just try to break my spirit. See what happens. :)


Toodles.

So I haven't posted in a very long time. A lot has gone on and I have just been so busy with everything that I completely forgot this blog even existed to be completely honest. I founda link to it and started reading through my old entries and some of them made me kind of sad. Especially the blog about my birthday in Galveston. In case you guys haven't heard (which you probably hasn't, because unless it's a disaster in New Orleans - hurricanes aren't well publicized) Galveston got pretty much wiped off of the face of the map by Hurricane Ike. Ike was a scary point in time. it was crazy. Alex stayed with us through pretty much the whole thing. The actual hurricane part was completely scary. It was so windy the trees were pretty much lying horizontal. (In case you aren't good with horizontal/vertical - horizontal is like this: ----- remember "Virgins stand up, whores lye down".. lol my math teacher told me that.) Okay back on topic. Anyway, so there was a lot of devastation and Galveston is just never going to be the same.

I have a lot to catch up on. I guess I can start with the fact that Alex and I are going to be moving in together in June. He already signed the lease for our apartment. He's going to move in this month and I'm going to co-lease this summer. I told my family and while they don't condone it; they still support me as their daughter. I love Alex and I'm so excited to grow up and be independant. I actually applied at pier one today, I'll probably get the job and start off at 8.00 an hour. I'll also get good discounts on stuff for the apartment. So I've been saving up money and calculating expenses and this is my funding plan:

My savings:

100 dollars (Me and Alex decided to put 100 dollars into savings instead of getting Christmas presents.)
300 dollars from my parents for Christmas money.
560 dollars total from the 20 dollars a week I get from my parents.
4000Working 5 days a week for 5 hours (at least)

Which all leads to a grand total of 4,960 dollars (not counting the money I'll get from my family for Christmas.

That's several months rent so I'll be comfortable.

I love having plans.
:)

Gtg,
toodles.

So I'm home, I'm bored, I'm cranky, I'm annoyed, I'm happy, I'm in a lot of pain over anything else so I think I'll rant for a little while. (The was 8 I's in the first sentence.) Must be a record. Anyway, I'm sitting here and I could swear that a small shark has taken root in my ovaries and is eating its way out through my filopian tube. There is even blood as evidence. Okay so that was a bit over-graphic but I feel that I should let you know just how much pain I'm in right now. Every 3 - 5 seconds I have a cramp so bad I have to stop what I'm doing and cringe over in pain. It's annoying, it's really effecting the time it takes me to blog this.

I suppose I'll change the topic so I stop grossing you out. This weekend was homecoming and it was fun. THe game wasn't so successful. It's funny because we went from 0 and 25 to 3 and 0 and the homecoming game was one of the most awaited events of the year. People actually wanted to see if we had gotten any better only to find out that we played the same, if not worse then we had before. So homecoming game was a disaster. BUT I got to see some familier faces I haven't seen in years from the magnolia cheerleaders. Holla! (Obviously I've been watching to much Tyra show.) Anyway, the dance was fabulous. This is the first year that the decorations and snacks were on par. It was great. The DJ was okay too.

Recently I added a new girl to the "girls I hate" list. She is one of 2 girls to ever be on this list and I have a feeling she won't be getting off of it ever. She works with my boyfriend and wants his you know what and I just can't deal with slutty girls.

Sorry, that was the PMS talking.

Back to the topic.

...Well I guess we really don't have a topic..

I forgot to mention that my sister wants me to wear a penguin suit to her wedding. and NO I do not mean a suit suit. I mean a penguin costume. Complete with feet, a head, and a fuzzy body. I can't promise the attention won't be on the bride but whatever tickles her feathers... Or I guess my feathers.

Okay, I've had enough blogging. I'm out.

toodles.

I haven't blogged here in forever. To be honest I forgot about livejournal. I've been really busy ever since schoo started back so I haven't had time. I'm actually in abilene texas right now. My cousin got married yesterday and I was a bridesmaid. It was cool bc my sister was there and I got to see her


Hurricane ike screwed over ny internet service so I only have ner via blackberry currently. Ike was pretty insane. It stripped me of a life for a week. And power too. No school should be a good thing but there was nothing to do. It wasn't so bad in the beginning because alex was with me but he left for seattle so I was sad. Especially because he was gone on his birthday. But he came home and I gave him an amazing birthday date :). But then I had to leave :( hopefulyl ill get to see him tonight though

Ok well I've gtg bc I'm at a resturant with the fam. Toodles

I haven't posted in a week because I have literally been up to nothing. I haven't had internet access other then via blackberry. My dad has been out of town so I have been taking care of things at home for my mom and hanging out with alex. Tonight was supposed to be a night of freedom but yeah..didn't happen.. My mom begged me to stay home. She has this fear of being alone. I understand it considering she literally weighs 95 lbs so compared to her I stand a great chance ina fight against an intruder. Even clumsy me, she thinks I could be "stealth" I guess.


Ill update u on my life I guess:


I registered for my senior year and I have to say I'm going to have the easiest year EVER. The school started this "block schedule" thing so I have a days and b days. I also have 2 late arrival and one early release. What does this mean? It means I have 3 classes a day. Roughly 3 hours of school starting at 9 am. Its ridiculously easy. As it should be considering this is the last year I can really mooch and be a kid. The countdown has begun. School starts on the 27th. Scary. Summer has really gone by way too fast. Its been a blur.


Anyway, the decision has been made that I will wear a penguin suit to my sisters wedding. No lie. I'm not even going to explain that one. I'm very anxious to see those wedding pictures that's all I'm gonna say.


Okay well that's enough updatong for now. I'm still journaling via blackberry because my house internet is out. Its kind of hurting my thumbs now and if I keep journaling like this AND txting like I do ill have carpel tunnel in a week. Okay byee

Were home from our day out on the river and I'm officially a puerto rican. Alex says I'm tanorexic bc I never think I'm THAT tan when he says I'm black but whatever. We met alexs dads girlfriend and she's nice buthonestly she just looks like his mom. Alex even sees the similarity.


We went to this river swimming hole first and jus relaxed. There was a turtle that kept staring at us and it was kind of cute. it was kind of acary though bc it was on this damwatterfall thing that just dropped off qabout 20 feet so it maade u think you would go off it. You easily could if you fell asleep tanning on a float or something. You could stand at the edge and look off though so it was a crazy feeling. It was cool though.


Then we drove 45 minutes to the middle of nowhere to find the park we were going to was closed to the public today but we conveniently saw this awesome dam that was like a waterslide so we went thereand slid down for a few hours. While I was sunbathing there I got offered a beer by a group of rednecks..it was awkward. And I lost my shades :(

Ps I've decided I'm getting an australian shephard one day

Toodles :)

So yesterday was fun. I went to san antonio with alex and his family and we had a blast. We walked the river walk and ate at a resturant called dicks where all of the waitors are dicks to everyone lol. They make people wear hats that are suppose to look like condoms. There were these two guys in there and their waitor wrote "I love blowing bubbles" on the first guys condom hat and then wrote "I am bubbles" on his friends. They were so rude but it was hilarious.


Then we walked the river walk some more while we made a game plan. We were going to see an imax but we decided to go see the natural bridge caverns instead. We took the illumination tour and it was beautiful. Even with 185 stairs that you had to walk down and then up again it wasd worth it.


Connected to the caverns there is this car safari that you can go on and there is all kind of animals. Zebras, deer, buffalo, etc, and....huge scary BIRDS. Ill get to that part in a minute. So I called my mom and it turns out I had been to that same safari when I was two do obviously I don't remember it. Bur alex and I have officially discovered the root of my weird bird phobia. So were going through this safari and everythings great. I'm feeding the buffalo and antelope and all kinds of cool animals and all of a sudden this huge bird comes up to the window. My hysteria kicks in and to my humiloiation I'm crying like a baby. We pass the bird and then along comes one 3 times the size of the first. Literally It was the size of a minicooper. I'm hiding my face bc I saw it from far away and I don't wantr to cry again so alex tells me that its gone and there is a baby donkey. I look up and this huge birds body is covering the entire window. JUsT its body. I screamed bloody murder and then began crying again. Later I called my mom only to discover when I was 2 I had the same reaction to the birds.. So there it is. The mystery to my bird phobia..

Oh well it was still fun. Then we watched the new. X files movie and went back to alexs dads house. Now today were going to the river like..right now so I've got to go


Toodles

So I'm in the car with alex and all of his family and I'm doing a livejournal on my blackberry.. I know I should be cutting my wrists right now I'm a little desperate.. Anyway, its really funny to me because alexs brother and sister are the model children minding their own business and then u have me and alex being the nischeivous ones lol.


So we just went into mcdonalds and I can already tell this is going to be one of those days. I have clutzy days. Actually I have a clutzy life. Its sad but true. I always trip,fall down stairs etc. Anyway so while getting out of the car I simultaniously scratch my leg on some unknown and hit my head. Then while getting my drink I totally spill it. As alex says, you can't take me out in public.


Let me tell you my most embarrassing moment ever. Its a bad one and as usual it revolves around falling. So we went on a group trip to washington dc and our tour guide was showing us around. When we got to the courthouse she informed us that while we were walking up the stairs we would be in the background of national news. So were all excited. I walk halfway up then trip and roll down in the background of the news. Yep. That's me. Its sad really


Okay well I'm gonna go now. Feeling weird journaling via blackberry. Kind of desperate


Toodles

I'm going to kerrville with alex :). Random last minute change of plans so I'm excited!!! Kaybyee